Lyrics: Aloc D
Music: Aloc D
Mix: 孤矢
I wanna give up
Cuz my life is almost hopeless
Feels like I'm scarred
with blood on my face
and couldn't wipe it off
When everything's making no sense
Can't find my way out.
Can't even see the point
of getting my way out.
but the child is innocent.
So I tried to survive malevolent thoughts.
Thought I already left the war,
but didn't get a better view.
Where is my battlefield?
When I get it on my back
never thought I would've crashed.
Had enough. Show me how do I rise up.
Desperation in my head
turned to rage, get my eyes blocked
I can't even try to keep my minds up
wanna reply, tell my homies “I'm fine”
but why do horse sh1ts even line up.
The phuck is wrong.
It was simply just about
a life I'm bout to wind up.
Oh yeah, sure, "I'm fine", but
Man I kinda find this
whole shit uncanny
Talking bout some that
I can or can't be
Ain't got nothing
in pocket to come in handy.
Like, the god does get
his sword, but didn't hand me,
to get me ashore,
but when I feel the beach sandy
Here's the lure I need, galore,
Hit or flee but what for?
A trick or treat?
indeed the pitch I'm peeking
is no more than candy.
But yet you can't see
I'm so damn morose, now.
Kraurotic, wilt, like
I'm drained up, cold.
Sound moronic:
"till I'm able to paint the ****ing sky like
Michelangelo did Sistine Chapel,
meaning I'm the goat."
but symbiotic, stuck in my life,
me and the low.
like He done cracked a practical joke
Just to bend it over, my spine,
thru a lie about a land of fancy.
yeah you think it is a life you lent me
So you can take it whenever relentlessly
With no resentment. I see.
But guess what?
I resented every motherfxxking second I lived,
well as every lil "present" you claimed “for my benefit"
Listen when I told you to
stay away from my biz.
otherwise Imma fight you
till the last second,
Until I die, bitch!
Now you dare to try it?
I fight my battle
i fight my demons
My cage is rattled
knocked my reasons
brain's unraveled.
i fight my battle
I fight to accept the fact
that i'm a god damn handicap.
I fight my demons
and the mare deep in,
never deem it something that I can detach.
Now my cage is rattled,
this provocative sound
had knocked my reasons.
Full of scalp blood in my nails
cuz I scratched,
Now my brain's unraveled
so i punch till
my cranium and hand are crashed.
i fight my battle
I fight to get rid of the fact
that im a god damn handicap.
I fight my demon
and the mare deep in,
So I keep myself awake then I can detach.
My cage is rattled,
this provocative sound
would've knocked my reasons.
but I get them back
I got string attached.
tho my brain's unraveled
still punch a devil
till my hands are crashed
He's trapped in a box
and nobody knows if
on the inside he's dead or alive
Probly got some cyanide bottle
to be broken up his back,
(He's Schroedinger's Cat.)
But he's bold enough to bet
the 50 percent to survival.
Cuz that his courage to live is so vital.
Death has come for his vitals.
Try to guess if this ought to be
the final strike tho.
Yet depression is so viral,
it's something he can not escape
Gotta find him crazed,
kept inside this cage.
And still choose to fight these battles
And to right mistakes.
He knows that he's stuck
in here by mistake.
And nights and days,
These Five inches knives
and violent hates
drive him insane.
Besides he gotta live the
rest of his life in vain.
Wonder how he's able to
survive his fate.
Cuz suicidal thoughts
been flying in his brain
For 365 whole days.
Matter fact he wanna say that
he's not okay!
But the real matter fact,
he's got no saying.
And he got no choice
But to swallow every phucking thing
No matter how bad his stomach aches.
Then keep surviving till
the ink of his vomit fades.
But no matter how hard he grasp.
Can't change the fact that
he's a god damn handicap
And he doubts if he's color blind
cuz why the phuck all he can sight
in front him is only gray to black?
He says "goodbye",
"Maybe things will get
better in another life
Maybe then it'll be
worthy of another fight"
He stares to the abyss
With the urge to jump inside,
he's got to fight it,
it's a battle.
He fights his battle
He fights his demons
His cage is rattled
knocked his reasons
brain's unraveled.
He fights his battle
He fights to accept the fact
that he's a god damn handicap.
He fights his demons
and the mare deep in,
never deem it something
that he can detach.
His cage is rattled,
this provocative sound
had knocked his reasons.
Full of scalp blood in his nails
cuz he scratched,
now his brain's unraveled
so he punch it till
his cranium and hand are crashed.
He fights his battle
He fight to get rid of the fact
that he's a god damn handicap.
He fights his demons
and the mare deep in,
So he kept him awake
then he can detach.
His cage is rattled,
this provocative sound
would've knocked his reasons.
but he get them back
he got string attached.
tho his brain's unraveled
still punch the devil
till his hands are crashed