Nothing ever stops all these thoughts
And the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happening
It's like nothing I can do will distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
'Cause from the infinite words I could say
I put all the pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize
Instead of setting it free
I took what I hated and made it a part of me
(It never goes away)
(It never goes away)
All these things I could not say
Made me so much more afraid
Just too scared of what I'd find
To look behind
To look behind
Hearing your name
The memories come back again
I remember when it started happening
I'd see you in every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away I was
Committing myself to them
And every day I regret saying those things
'Cause now I see that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
(It never goes away)
(It never goes away)
All these things I could not say
Made me so much more afraid
Just too scared of what I'd find
To look behind
To look behind
If you go, there's no turnin' back
If you go, there's no turnin' back
If you go, there's no turnin' back
There's no turnin' (No, no, no, no, no, no)
No, (No-oh, oh, oh)
No, (No-oh, oh, oh)
No, (No-oh, oh, oh)
No, (No-oh, oh, oh)
No, (No-oh, oh, oh)
No, (No-oh, oh, oh)
No, (No-oh, oh, oh)
No, (No-oh, oh, oh)
No, (No-oh, oh, oh)
And now you've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you
I've let myself become you
I've let myself become lost inside these thoughts of you
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you