Looking Up

Lyrics: Adam Bais Music: Gregor Sperzel Comin’ up around the corner of the final lap Through the race I faced forward never looking back Focus on the track This is where I’m at Can I rewind all the caps I mistook for fact? Maybe I would have the time if I took it back

Growing up, my father was on his boss shit Mom raised the kids, he was always in the office Wins over losses, tryna make a profit Give it to the offspring, all they ever wanted Never had no problems, never broke a promise Taught us that being a man is being honest

Well here goes, I’m grateful for your work and the house it bought us I’m glad that you taught us music cause it brought us Life and taught me how to turn my strife into a concert I’m thirty and I’m feeling there’s more I should accomplish It hurts me and I’m trying to affect whatever caused it

Started making drama with mama when I was nine Throwing fits up all the time, my brother was my accomplice Papa on the grind, he was coming home exhausted I think I wanted more of a father figure to bond with

I’m looking up I’m starting to see The light that’s been reflecting on me I’m good enough I’m starting to free My mind from what’s expected

So even though I’m on stage and I’m getting the clout I’m still full of self-doubt, tryna figure it out Reconfigure the route I’m ice cold cause you told me that’s what winner about And so I shine like a diamond Never satisfied with myself So there’s always a reason to keep grinding Still I find it hard believing what’s on my mind Fighting demons all the time Though my dreams is realized it’s hard

I doubt you’re proud that I’m an artist Cause you never said it out loud and so I wonder Each negative comment repeated like a mantra Bad energy nested deep in my subconscious I still feel proud that you’re my father Regardless of judgement Imma do it in your honor Father, I hope you’re looking at your son Just as proud as I am of the person I’ve become

I’m looking up (damn right) I’m starting to see The light that’s been reflecting on me I’m good enough (yeah I’m good enough) I’m starting to free My mind from what’s expected of me

Comin’ up around the corner of the final lap, Through the race I faced forward never looking back. Never took a nap Would you look at that I stopped following the rules like a bureaucrat Unlearned what has gotten me confused Every blunt I ever burned got me further from the truth No stone unturned, I was howling at the moon Now I’m learning I can move with a purpose and it’s true I can open up the curtain, see the sun is shining through

Aha Ain’t the same (3x) I finally found that I’m free Aha I done changed (3x) I think I’m finally me Aha Found my way (3x) No longer blinded I see Aha I’m okay (4x)