Lyrics: Meredith Henderson/Nathan Johnson
Music: Evan Gillen/Michael Clampitt
I wonder if you meant it
Any of the times you said it
Or did you just regret it
Every second every minute
The sad part is
I could never hate you
After everything
I still forgave you
It doesn’t make sense
Why I’m still upset
Still hanging onto everything you ever said
Nights I spent wondering
Why wasn’t I enough?
you left me lying on the floor
With my ribs crushed
I wonder if you meant it
Any of the times you said it
Or did you just regret it
Every second every minute
Did you mean it?
When you said it
Just regret it
Every minute
Even love is ruthless and these wounds are proof
That we survive but at the cost of being used
Why do I always let the wrong ones in?
To give them the satisfaction of having them win
Well this time I won’t bury the hatchet
I want my revenge
I wonder if you meant it
Any of the times you said it
Or did you just regret it
Every second every minute
I never had it that good before
Felt so alive till i bled out on the floor
The one that stood out from the rest
Ended up as being buckshot through my chest
****ed me up
Like an all out blitz
Had to get a fix
Gotta from the 6
Real shit no tricks
Bad luck bad bitch
**** you feel this
What’s it worth to feel your pain
When it soon discovers rage
And we’ve grown to resent each other
Push ourselves away
Pushing down the pain
Putting faith in you
was my only crime
your words
are poison dripping off the vine
I cut out every memory
till you're ****ing dead to me
I still hope you ****ing hurt just like I did
you never deserved any ounce of my kindness
you know that I heard you ****ing survived it
still hoping you’re breaking under your vices
You’ll never hurt in the ways that I did
I regret all the times that I ****ing forgave you
Used to abuse so i'm easy to lie to
Still wondering why did I love you?
When I couldn’t even trust you.