Music: Mark Anthony Henriquez
I hold on to a lot of shit I need to let it go
Heart broken and I’m staring at the moon light
Nothings helping so I’m hoping that this view might
I don’t wanna sinking in tonight
So I crack a brew that’s just what I have to do to get my mood right
I don’t understand who I’m even becoming
Don’t know why my demons are always getting summoned
Man they make it so hard for me to let love in
Don’t know what I run from but I keep on running
Wish that I could slow down but I’ve never known how
If you give me your heart it’s gonna get thrown out
I stayed in the darkness even when I found light
F**king hate this bottle so I break it on the ground like/like
Why do I drink till I’m numb
Why do I smoke till it’s done
Till I don’t feel anything no more
I don’t feel anything no more
Saying why do I drink till I’m numb
Why do I smoke till it’s done
Till I don’t feel anything no more
I don’t feel anything no more
Feels like I don’t fit in with society
They may not like who I am but I am me
I don’t never talk I’m sitting quietly
But my head is loud don’t know how to settle down all the anxiety
I have always felt like I don’t belong here
It’s been a long year it’s been a long life
Sick of everybody saying its gonna be alright
Little do they know that I had tears dropping all night
Everyone is who the f**k I need to stay away from
I don’t wanna feel shit I just wanna stay numb
I know that it’s not right needa get my mind right
But for now I’m drunk high crying to the sky like/like
Why do I drink till I’m numb
Why do I smoke till it’s done
Till I don’t feel anything no more
I don’t feel anything no more
Saying why do I drink till I’m numb
Why do I smoke till it’s done
Till I don’t feel anything no more
I don’t feel anything no more
I don’t wanna be like this forever though
But it’s harder than I’d like to show
I make the small things seem bigger like I’m looking through a microscope
Lost so many friendships and I lost a few girls
Needa be relentless if I wanna build a new world
I know that I can change every day I am praying
Cause I don’t wanna be a 80 year old man saying/saying
Why do I drink till I’m numb
Why do I smoke till it’s done
Till I don’t feel anything no more
I don’t feel anything no more
Saying why do I drink till I’m numb
Why do I smoke till it’s done
Till I don’t feel anything no more
I don’t feel anything no more