Lyrics: Connor Woodland
Music: Connor Woodland
Cus I dont wanna be alot
Don't wanna dont wanna her to take her spot
Yeah, she wants to see me wants to me choosed
I don't feeling anything, nothing for you
Drip from my nails and I stop
Freeze and I panic I panic a lot
Bitch on my side she know she not the one
So we take some more pills and forget what we've done
Cus I hate everything you say,
Hate how the hate how the way we changed
As I'm looking at you, yeah the pain starts to breathe
Down in the anguish my thoughts start to flee
Cus I hate everything i am
Hate how the hate how the way you stare
I know under the ocean the sky is so blue
Living in danger I'm losing to you
Watching a friend getting crushed
Bothered by pressure and feeling disgust
Whats is the point, what is a dream
Why do I chase all these feelings
Don't wanna be another let down, you know that I am
I don't wanna let in anyone in again
It's all my fault, I know that youβre fine
I don't wanna waste anymore of your time
Nothing to no one you know that it's true
Wake in a fog and the covers consume
There's no daylight inside here
I'm not coming out just to find im always used
The person that matters is always just you
Peeling my skin back to feel something new
I know I don't belong here
The pressures weighing down on my mind
Cus I dont feel alive anymore snap back and I wake on your floor
Cant tell whats fact from fiction I think I'm just losing my grip
Friends change up I just can't relate overdosing on something that's fake
Everytime I try to be myself I feel like they wanna take
Everything that I've built to be, lacerations build up and bleed
I thought that pain inside would stop but we both know that it never leaves
Should I stay if no one will care, we all know that life isn't fair
So I just bide my time inside this hell until my skin starts to tear
Yeah, starving myself on the daily and now you portray me
As someone whose joyful and happy thats crazy
don't want to save just salvage my throat
So some words can still come out so you can still cope
Put on a pedestal I don't deserve this
I'm just a scumbag who somehow just surfaced
Do you know I just write these songs as hope
I'm far from perfect I still just choke
On emotions I can't get out
See the keys inside now snapped down
Seeing the ones that you love now just stop and just stare
Guess you realize now that no one will care
Im unstable, im unable
To open up and talk about it
Suicidal tendencies coming at friends in the waves
Taking your hand now I'm stuck in a grave
Nothing more, nothing less
Left disgusted by my friends
What's the point when I'm gone
I just know I don't belong
Cus I dont feel alive anymore snap back and I wake on your floor
Cant tell whats fact from fiction I think I'm just losing my grip
Friends change up I just can't relate overdosing on something that's fake
Everytime I try to be myself I feel like they wanna take
Everything that I've built to be, lacerations build up and bleed
I thought that pain inside would stop but we both know that it never leaves
Should I stay if no one will care, we all know that life isn't fair
So I just bide my time inside this hell until my skin starts to tear