Music: Madeline Winter
[Intro: nidia] Keep me locked away, just like food when I'm on Adderall
Kick me in my face, it's okay, I'm not mad at all
Cuz truth be told I deserve it, truth be told, all the scars, I earned it
And my stomach hurting, walk through life, head low I'm a burden
[Hook: nidia] Like shit, how you do me like that?
Walk through life got a knife in my back
And I'm dressed all black, fightin' for my life 'til my lifeline flat
Needing things my soul is starvin', pray for my body my soul departed
Can't see my face my scars alarming, like why all my demons gotta be the smartest?
Feel my pain from my arms to my legs in my vessel
When I was a kid, they said Aidin you'll be special
And I don't like to wrestle, scrape from my rings when I grip onto metal
Aimin' straight at my mental, pullin' that trigger shit ain't accidental
And my life is a symbol, someone in life won't want meet that potential
[Verse 1: nidia] Shit, and my real name Aidin, there's luck in this life, you just gotta create it
But God plays favorites, Lord oh Lord I'm not your favorite
Lord oh Lord I'm not your favorite
But Lord oh Lord I need some savin'
Lord oh Lord my mental breakin'
Are you the one I should put my faith in?
Needing things my soul is starvin', pray for my body my soul departed
Can't see my face my scars alarming, like why all my demons gotta be the smartest?
Like why all my demons gotta be the smartest?
Like why all my demons gotta be the smartest?
[Verse 2: blackwinterwells] My life life life keeps getting worse worse worse worse in surprising ways
People switch up that I’ve known for days, smell it in the air when the lightnings changes though
I don't know where it comes from, getting really tired I don’t know if I can keep up
It’s not the easiest life
Will you make things right?
Pills off the dark web help me sleep, real ones around me help me see
Last year’s hard work helps me walk, cubensis helped me learn to talk again
Start to open up again, I know I’ll get hurt again
But I know that it’s worth it, can't live forever behind the curtain
And you showed me that, and you love me back, and you **** me right
You don't make me sad
Way the others do, hurts that they left but it’s for the best too
They weren’t good to me, they were rough with my heart
[Hook: nidia] Like shit, how you do me like that?
Walk through life got a knife in my back
And I'm dressed all black, fightin' for my life 'til my lifeline flat
Needing things my soul is starvin', pray for my body my soul departed
Can't see my face my scars alarming, like why all my demons gotta be the smartest?
Feel my pain from my arms to my legs in my vessel
When I was a kid, they said Aidin you'll be special
And I don't like to wrestle, scrape from my rings when I grip onto metal
Aimin' straight at my mental, pullin' that trigger shit ain't accidental
And my life is a symbol, someone in life won't want meet that potential