Music: Raymond Ramirez
Blunts in my lips as I take a first ****
Looking for spare change just to pay for this shit
But no matter what I do these thoughts remain
I get high when I feel pain
Cause I think that helps my senses
More aware more up and restless
But I just yelled at my mom
Is it drugs or a broken heart why I’m reckless
I came with terms to the fact
That I guess I never recovered
From the heartbreak, pain, and misery
That came with last summer
I can’t tell the difference between
Nightmares and desires
I close my eyes and reminisce
I see death and feel inspired
Couldn’t sleep last night
Because I know that it’s over between us
I’m not better anymore
Because I know that what we had was real
And in some distant place in the future
We see each other in our new lives
I’ll smell at you with joy,
And remember how we spent the summer
Beneath the trees
The best love, is the kind that awakens the soul
That makes us reach for more
And
Plants a fire in our hearts,
That brings space in our minds
And that’s what you’ve given me
That’s what I’d hope to give to you forever
Always talking about my problems
And the **** that’s in my ****** head
You would always tell me it’s okay
As we lay in my bed
I was finding peace within the words
That you would say to me
Now you stay away from me
And life just ain’t okay with me
I manifest the madness
In hopes that you’d maybe notice
That I’m falling off the deep end
Screaming take my heart and note
That it makes no difference if I’m living
If I’m sitting here just wishing
I could buy you like a drug
And form you like a new addiction
Yeah