Lyrics: Vaughn Kevin Pinto
Music: VAWNE/Skinny Slayah
Searching through the seasons, seeking for new reasons
Too keep this fire burning and stay steady schemin'
What benefits we reapin? Only gained some demons
Dancing around my crown to make some sounds for the leeches
Act strong, hide the sadness,you're a man boy
Looking back and letting all these memories haunt me again
Never thought about it but guess I'm into BDSM
Cuz the pain of the past is something in which I find joy
Friends forever disappear leaving scars on my wrist
Strangers on another boat asking why I stay quiet
When betrayals hit hard , Another spark sees denial
Is it 'cause i burnt the bible that I'm stuck in this cycle
To gain love and lose it, so i can write some music
For some people to judge and leave me ****in ruined
Hope for improvement but in stagnance, I am fluent
I just let my brain bleed hoping that I'll bathe in tulips
Barking with my dogs thinkin that we super tough
Till the cogs of life turn and shit starts getting rough (ruff)
See the wolves turn to bitches, and start putting up a bluff
See their fangs begin to glisten, I just dont give a ****
7 damn years trying my best to pen a hit, uh
As time flies by more people dont give a shit, yuh
The cash coming in and I live a little lavish
But feel empty within as my dreams turn to ashes
Praying for more chances as I'm inking out my sadness
Feel life losing meaning as my soul turns to ashes
The **** is motivation? Haven't felt it in a minute
Also lost my reputation, wishin' for a death sentence
Self-doubt and hatred overwhelms me from within
Keep doing shit I hate, what the **** is passion
Cop corporate cheque to facilitate my sinnin'
Hope you see it in my eyes when I say what's the point of livin'