Lyrics: JOHN LANDON MCINTOSH
Music: JOHN LANDON MCINTOSH
[Verse 1]
I light the fuse, then flinch
Call it a habit, call it a switch
Same old stairs, same old fall
I see the edge and I lean on it all
I say “not tonight” again
Then I go back where I said I’d end
Palm on the flame, I still don’t learn
Breaking my own bridge as it burns
[Pre-Chorus]
I know the taste
I know the cost
I hold the key
And still get lost
My hands shake, but I stay
Right on the line I drew today
[Chorus]
Self sabotage, I do it again
Pulling myself down, back in the bend
Self sabotage, I know what it does
Still I reach for the thing I said I’d never love
Self sabotage, I do it again
One step forward, then I start to spin
Self sabotage, I know the name
I’m fighting the fire inside my brain
[Verse 2]
Empty bottle, unopened text
Little white lies I wear like reps
One more scroll, one more bite
One more “I’m fine” to get through the night
I tell you “stay,” then I push you out
Build up the wall, then I crave it down
I hate the trap, but I know the route
I keep the door cracked, then I break right through
[Pre-Chorus]
I know the taste
I know the cost
I hold the key
And still get lost
My hands shake, but I stay
Right on the line I drew today
[Chorus]
Self sabotage, I do it again
Pulling myself down, back in the bend
Self sabotage, I know what it does
Still I reach for the thing I said I’d never love
Self sabotage, I do it again
One step forward, then I start to spin
Self sabotage, I know the name
I’m fighting the fire inside my brain
[Bridge]
I’m tired of the bruises I call fate
Tired of the monster I make and make
If I want out, I’ve got to stay
When the old me calls, I won’t obey
[Final Chorus]
Self sabotage, not tonight
I’ve lost enough to know this fight
Self sabotage, I know what it does
But I can learn to let it go, bit by bit, little by little, enough
Self sabotage, not tonight
I’m done making a home out of the night
Self sabotage, I know the name
I’m fighting the fire inside my brain