Lyrics: Kency Chan
Music: Kency Chan
Arranger: Kency Chan
I used to think I’d be someone
By the time I hit twenty-five
Big dreams in a small bedroom
Still learning how to survive
I talk to walls like they know me
I light another cigarette
I say I’m fine like it’s holy
Like lies don’t come with regret
I’ve been waiting on a sign
But the signs don’t wait for me
Every plan I draw in my mind
Fades in reality
I had great expectations
Now I’m just trying to sleep
Too many conversations
That only happen in me
I had great expectations
Thought love would save my soul
Now I’m counting the seconds
Just to feel in control
I scroll through lives I don’t live in
Everyone looks okay
They got answers, I got questions
That won’t leave me alone today
I wear my smile like armor
Cracks show when I breathe
I’m not broken, just tired
Of being everything
I keep running in place
Calling it “being brave”
If this is growing up
Why does it feel like a cage
I had great expectations
Now I’m just trying to sleep
Too many conversations
That only happen in me
I had great expectations
Thought love would save my soul
Now I’m counting the seconds
Just to feel in control
Maybe I’m not falling behind
Maybe I’m just moving slow
Maybe all this pressure in my mind
Is proof I still have hope
If I don’t make it tonight
At least I tried to be real
I’d rather hurt for something
Than feel nothing at all
I had great expectations
I still do, I guess
They just don’t look like dreams anymore
They look like rest