Music: Kyo-Lee Bennett/GORY GEMINI/DOWN FVLL
Lyrics: Kyo-Lee Bennett
Feeling like a lost a boy stuck up in this pit of regret and despair I just wanna be okay
I admit it
All these thoughts got me fxxked up in the head
Am I dead?
I don't know
I can't face my feelings
And I wait here for my life to fade away
And I wait here for one more chance
It's all I've got
Crawling out the darkness my heart ripped been tryna flush the pieces
Leave no evidence of my feelings I know they love to see them
Broken up and crushed to a dust like they get a high from breathing
Them up you been set up and lured here just to feed my demons up
See what pretty shades you spill out for me where I cut
I just wanna taste on it savour up all your blood
Mumbling through his phone while my tongue in between his slut
I ain’t got no love left just hunger disdain and lust
I can't take back the memories they haunt me
I just want to break free from this thing we call life
Feeling like a lost a boy stuck up in this pit of regret and despair I just wanna be okay
I admit it
All these thoughts got me fxxked up in the head
Am I dead?
I don't know
I can't face my feelings
And I wait here for my life to fade away
And I wait here for one more chance
It's all I've got
It's all I've got
I been waiting for a long time
Took up drinking just so I could use it as a past time
I went over the limit, I just cannot recall how no limit, looking livid, my liver’s living in wartimes huh
Here’s the premise, I'm a narcissistic menace
Dive in a pxssy, headfirst, I make a splash like we in Venice
Conscientious, when I'm mixing drinks I'm looking like a chemist
In all fairness I’m athletic, endorphins as anesthetics yuh
Maybe she’s right, I'm wasting away, when I should face my feelings
Shake my head, I won’t give her the satisfaction, I ain’t willing to admit it
Fxxk it, I made it another day
All my troubles getting better, as soon as I'm getting paid okay
Let's get it
Feeling like a lost a boy stuck up in this pit of regret and despair I just wanna be okay
I admit it
All these thoughts got me fxxked up in the head
Am I dead?
I don't know
I can't face my feelings
And I wait here for my life to fade away
And I wait here for one more chance
It's all I've got