Pacing down the hallway caught between the doors
My phone screen cracked from gripping way too tight
I wrote your name on napkins then I tore them up
Half the coffee gone the rest is turning cold
My friends all say I'm losing sleep for nothing
But they don't see the way you laugh when lights go low
I keep rehearsing words I'll probably never send
And something in my chest won't let me let this end
So I'm done with playing safe
Done with overthinking days
If I fall at least I know
I didn't let you slip away without a fight
I didn't swallow what I felt and call it pride
They can say I'm reckless say I'm chasing wildfire
But I would rather burn than never know the light
I'm laying all my cards out on the table now
Not waiting for the perfect line to figure out
I'm running heart first heart first heart first
And I wouldn't change a thing
Remember Tuesday rain we shared the broken handle
Your sleeve soaked through you laughed and pulled me closer still
I traced the ripples where the water hit the pavement
And thought if this is nothing then what is it worth
My mother taught me never beg for someone's love
But somewhere in the gray I learned to separate
The pride that keeps you standing from the fear that keeps you small
And I refuse to shrink before I give it all
So I'm done with playing safe
Done with overthinking days
If I fall at least I know
I didn't let you slip away without a fight
I didn't swallow what I felt and call it pride
They can say I'm reckless say I'm chasing wildfire
But I would rather burn than never know the light
I'm laying all my cards out on the table now
Not waiting for the perfect line to figure out
I'm running heart first heart first heart first
And I wouldn't change a thing
The scariest chaos is the silence I keep
The heaviest weight is the courage I leave
So whisper or scream it or crash through the glass
I'm done being someone who waits for the crash
I didn't let you slip away without a fight
I didn't swallow what I felt and call it pride
They can say I'm reckless say I'm chasing wildfire
But I would rather burn than never know the light
I'm laying all my cards out on the table now
Not waiting for the perfect line to figure out
I'm running heart first heart first heart first
And I wouldn't change a thing
I'm running heart first heart first heart first
And I wouldn't change a thing