if we're honest...

Lyrics: crusey ellie Music: crusey ellie (Go, yeah) Don-Don't wanna talk about it if we're honest (If we're honest) (Yeah) I'm not over it, lets change the topic (Change the topic) I-I was on my ass, I had to go, no other options (No other options) (Ye-Yeah) Can't focus on it until I cross it (Until I cross it) ****ed up one too many times, I think I lost it (Lost it) (Yeah) I can't hear another empty promise (Promise) Don't know if I can feel, I'm so exhausted (Exhausted) Tell me, were the good times worth what they costed? (What they costed?) I'll keep going, I don't got nothing left I'm still hoping, one day we can be friends Feels so hopeless, treat me like a human being Do y-do you notice, baby would you keep my secrets? (Yeah) I don't like to get too revealing (Get too revealing) Hard to show it, but I still got some feelings (Got some feelings) I-I keep coping, do you care 'bout my wellbeing? (Wellbeing) Think I'm at my lowest, I-I guess that we're even (Even) (Yeah, huh) An-And I drink too much, my eyes turn black (Eyes turn black) And I close my eyes and turn my back (Turn my back) Never cared about me, treat me like trash (Treat me like trash) (Yeah) I can't ****ing fix the way I act (Fix the way I act) Did me so bad, but I guess it's in the past Life moves too fast, won't apologize and you just laugh Guess we lost track, baby tell me what you're looking at? I can't fall back, yea-yeah, I'm not up for this task I feel nothing, (Yeah), I feel in my gut you up to something (Up to something) We don't got too much more time, I'll keep rushing (I'll keep rushing) I can feel it in my spine, but I'm above this (Yeah) I don't wanna talk if you can't calm down (Can't calm down) Yeah, I really hate when you're not around (Not around) I can't get it out my brain that there's someone else (There's someone else) So I feel so stupid when I open my mouth (Open my mouth) It gets hard to tell, they throw me on a shelf Guess I wish you well if only you knew how I fell When you can, call me on my cell, yeah, you put me through hell Fix my face and watch me swell, my skin starts to get pale I-It gets hard to tell, they throw me on a shelf Guess I wish you well if only you knew how I fell When you can, call me on my cell, yeah, you put me through hell Fix my face and watch me swell, my skin starts to get pale (Get pale)