Lyrics: Sasami Ashworth
Music: Sasami Ashworth
I lost my callouses for you, and you didn’t even think to ask me how my day was, now I’m leaving.
I couldn’t even count the number of times that I let you in and I made myself small, even though I smiled throughout it all.
When I look back, I can see myself slipping down.
Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried. Heaven knows I tried tonight.
I know it’s not your fault you were born with a spoon in your throat, and a gun in your hand, and a plan for yourself. I’m not grieving.
It’s just a matter of time and a matter of worth, and you’ve known since birth what you like, and I’m happy for you until my face is blue.
When I look back, I can see myself so clear. When I look back, I can see myself slipping down.
Tonight will be the night (heaven knows).
Tonight will be the night (heaven knows I tried).
Tonight will be the night (heaven knows I tried tonight).