Lyrics: Caroline Pennell
Music: Caroline Pennell
I am not myself today
Washed my legs and shaved my face
Did my hair a different way
I am not myself today
I’m a phone in the mattress
Keys in the door
I’m the hair tie you dropped in the car on the floor
I’m the stranger you’re kissing
The thing that went missing
That no one is looking for
Oh I’m freaking out
Trying not to turn this car right around
Cuz there ain’t a feeling I’m not tryna fix
I’m not a grown-up but I’m not a kid
Hurts every time I’m reminded
I’m not dying, I’m just 26
Mmm
I do not agree today
I do not agree with the terms that I’ve signed
Rip up the documents un-dot the line
Cuz I do not agree today
I’m a phone in the mattress
Keys in the door
I’m as lost as I was at 18 if not more
I’m the stranger you’re kissing
The thing that went missing
That I don’t have time to look for
Oh I’m freaking out
Trying not to turn this car right around
Cuz there ain’t a feeling I’m not tryna fix
I’m not a grown-up but I’m not a kid
It hurts every time I’m reminded
I’m not dying, I’m just 26
Maybe if I just called home more than 2 times a year
Maybe if I stopped needing every grocery cashier
To fall deeply and madly in love with me
Something is probably certainly wrong with me
I just can’t handle it staying the same
But I am not willing to change
I am not willing to change