Music: Avrey Freeman
I'm insecure, I'm overwhelmed, go to hell
I'm insecure, I'm overwhelmed
I can't forget you said, "Go to hell"
You say you love me, but I know better
I still read the writing in that old letter
But it don't matter 'cause I won't get it
I'm so ****ing sick of this cold weather
It started raining, and it won't let up
Mama, you promised me it would go better
But I'm cut deep, and it won't heal
And I don't think, and I don't feel
Wanna OD, but my mom's still here
I can't leave her with them bills
You don't know me, you know the old me
How you told me I'm the one and only
I'm so ****ing sick of all this growing
Don't say you love me, I'm forever lonely
I keep on hearing that it takes time
Maybe I'll get it when I'm older
I see my nephews through FaceTime
And they just keep on getting older
Keep on getting high to waste time
My mom trying to be a soldier
But I can't keep begging for closure
Maybe she'll love me when I'm sober
If you don't need me no more, say so
If you don't need me no more, say so
Too insecure, too overwhelmed
To get the best out of myself
Too many drinks, too empty beds
Too many thoughts weighing on my chest
And the music helps, but it ain't the best
And I done seen too many deaths
Too many bills all on my desk
It's a fake life on the internet
So I'm insecure, I'm overwhelmed
I can't forget you said, "Go to hell"
You say you love me, but I know better
I still read the writing in that old letter
But it don't matter 'cause I won't get it
I'm so ****ing sick of this cold weather
It started raining, and it won't let up
Mama, you promised me it would go better
I'm insecure
I'm so insecure
And I'm overwhelmed
I'm so overwhelmed
I'm insecure
I'm so insecure
And I'm overwhelmed
I'm so overwhelmed