Almost

I’m holding my breath in the hallway of "almost" Collecting the splinters of things I loved most Your name is a salt-sting, a cut on my tongue A melody borrowed, a song left unsung The window is leaking the cold morning light I’m still wearing shadows I found in the night The shore is a graveyard of driftwood and bone I’ve built me a kingdom of sitting alone I’m tracing the cracks in the skin of my palms Looking for exits or some kind of calm But the glass in my chest is beginning to shift And I’m losing my grip on the edge of the cliff Break me open, let the winter pour in I’m tired of hiding the ghost in my skin I’m brittle as paper, I’m thin as the frost Just a map for the places where everyone’s lost Oh, the tide is coming, it’s heavy and wide And I’ve got no more mountains to carry inside Is it enough? To be a hollow shell on the sand? To be the reach, but never the hand? I am shouting at waves that don’t know my face I am running a ghost-led, circular chase! Break me open, let the winter pour in I’m tired of hiding the ghost in my skin I’m brittle as paper, I’m thin as the frost Just a map for the places where everyone’s lost Oh, the tide is coming, it’s heavy and wide And I’ve got no more mountains to carry inside Carry inside I’m just Brittle glass