Lyrics: Matthew Musto/Mike Posner/Adam Friedman/Martijn Konijnenburg/Em Beihold
Music: Matthew Musto/Mike Posner/Adam Friedman/Martijn Konijnenburg/Em Beihold
Got a hole in my heart that I tried to fill
With the money and the girls and the molly pill
I called my mom up yesterday
Nothing's really wrong but Iβm not okay
And it rushes in, the memories, the sad thoughts, and everything
I look around and suddenly I almost fade away
Singing cross my heart I donβt hope to die
2018 almost lost my mind
Tell my mother that Iβll be fine
Doing my best to stay alive, alive, alive, alive
Yeah yeah
I put a smile on, but I'm not okay
People start to worry when I sleep for days
Iβm dressed to kill but Iβm dying inside
When I was a little boy I dreamed of this life
Now Iβm all grown up got kids of my own
Try to show them love that I did not know
My father was an addict and so am I
Doing everything just to stay alive
It rushes in, the medicine, the chemicals, and imbalances
I look around and suddenly I threw them all away
Singing cross my heart I donβt hope to die
2018 almost lost my life
Tell my brother that Iβll be fine
Doing my best to stay alive, alive, alive
Doing my best to stay alive, alive, alive
Doing my best to stay alive
Doing my best to stay alive