Lyrics: Paula Shin
Music: Paula Shin
every now and then,
can't play pretend and i'm broken
can't do anything,
can't convince myself i'm not ruined
ruined forever and ever
never be able to feel safe
hopelessly
i feel worthless
irrevocably hurting
it's not comforting
suffering
physically unsafe and it's my fault!
i can't distract myself like i normally do
i'm through
truly ashamed to burden you
it hurts to love myself
at the mall i see families acting busy
she calms me down
drowning out the sounds of danger to the background
hold my hand
i feel overwhelmed
private realm
meditation feels dangerous to someone who dissociates way too much
meditation feels dangerβ
these sensations feel stranger
strangers anger my nature
please sedate me
i'm anxious
please help us
meditation feels dangerous,
changes us
maybe favor us