In My Head

Lyrics: Kai Bosch/Nell Mescal Music: Nell Mescal/Kai Bosch  I look for you in other people I nearly found you in a stranger  And he tells me that I'm pretty  But he don't see me as an equal  And I was thinking of your mom's house  And every picture that you live in  I wanna crawl inside the photos  But then reality, it kicks in  I'm alone in this bed, yeah, he'll leave me for dead  He will rise with the sun, place a kiss on my head  Like he cares, like he cares  I know time wasn't kind, oh, it left us behind  And I start to forget all the reasons I cried at your hands  Was it all in my head? Was it all in my-?  You cut me loose  When I hung around  Yeah, I wanted you  But you wanted out  I bite my tongue  As he pins me down 'Cause I think of you  At your mother's house  I look for you in the wrong places  That's why I'm crashing every party  And I'm clinging to the smokers  Until they're calling me a taxi  And I don't know how I could turn this around  But my fingers are blue, gripping memories of you  'Cause I care, I still care  I wasn't alright, but he turned off the light  Was too tired to talk, so, I built it all up in my head  Was it all in my head? Was it all in my-?  You cut me loose  When I hung around  Yeah, I wanted you  But you wanted out  And I bite my tongue  As he pins me down  'Cause I think of you  At your mother's house  I wake up, I wake up with a deathwish  Was it love? Tell me, love, if I'm haunting you  Do you sleep? Do you sleep with the light on?  When you bleed, hope it all comes back to you  I wake up, I wake up with a deathwish  Was it love? Tell me, love, if I'm haunting you  Do you sleep? Do you sleep with the light on? When you bleed, hope it all comes back to you