Without You

Raindrops on the window… Somewhere between a heartbeat and a goodbye… Let it loop. I'm still the same, just a little more quiet Still hate the rain, butI've learned to keep quiet Stubborn at the core, never learned to fold the map I know the truth, but Ican't take it back Spent my youth on a loud exhaust pipe dream Thought money could buy what I already had, it seems I still wanna drive you'round, no destination in sight But me without you?That's a broken satellite. Valentine with no lover Camera but no shutter A desk lamp thatwon't flicker That's me without you, just a bitter tune hummed slower Like a sentence with no space to breathe YouTube with no playlist up its sleeve A chapter full of pages that are blank Me without you— theriver's missing its bank. Idon't wanna live without you—that's a lie I tell the dawn Idon't wanna be alone, butsolitude's already drawn Every curve of your silhouette, every angle of your laugh If we could rewind the reel, would you walk the other half? I've been through the crash, the slow burn, the repeat Can't retrace those steps, my soles forgot the heat Pride on the floor, you took everything but the grief NowI'm talking to the moon like it owes me relief My friends say" stand up"—I'm already on my feet Just not in the direction where your shadow and mine meet. Valentine with no lover Camera but no shutter A desk lamp thatwon't flicker That's me without you, just the silence getting thicker A sentence with no space to breathe YouTube with no playlist left to weave A chapter with no pages to turn blue Me without you— learning what the word" without" means too. I deleted my Instagram, not because I hate the light But because every post of yours looked better in my memory at night I killed a bottle, then I killed the need to call Losing you was like losing my voice— but I found another song after all Not for my fans, not for the followers in my phone Just for the part of me that learned to walk back home… alone.