Lyrics: Tris
Music: Tris
Arranger: Tris
I said I wouldn’t text you
Guess what, I did it again
Swore I was done with this loop
But I’m back here again
I keep blaming the timing
Like that makes it okay
Truth is I start the fire
Then I watch it blaze
I don’t even know myself
When I get like this
One second I’m alright
Next second I miss
I’m good at messing things up
Then acting like it’s fate
Like I had no control
Like it’s just too late
But I know damn well
I’m the one to blame
Still I go right back
Into the same damn flame
But I know damn well
I’m the one to blame
Still I go right back
Into the same damn flame
I laugh it off in public
Like it’s nothing real
But alone in my car
Yeah, I feel what I feel
I push people away
Then wonder why they leave
I say “I’m fine” too much
Like I believe me
Maybe I like the chaos
More than being calm
Maybe I need the damage
To feel like I belong
I’m good at messing things up
Then acting like it’s fate
Like I had no control
Like it’s just too late
But I know damn well
I’m the one to blame
Still I go right back
Into the same damn flame
But I know damn well
I’m the one to blame
Still I go right back
Into the same damn flame
Maybe I don’t want fixing
Maybe I like the break
Maybe I need the damage
Just to feel awake