Lyrics: Lethal Culture
Music: Lethal Culture
I gave you the last pieces of me
Now I don't even know who's in the mirror
Just tired, just done
I didn't wanna write this
But you gave me no choice
I held the weight like a soldier does
Covered your wounds while I bled because
You needed strength and I gave you mine
Till my pulse slowed down, now I'm flatlined
Listened at 2:00 AM when you cried
Gave you hope when you wanted to die
I showed up no matter the storm
Now my soul's soaked and I'm left deformed
You took and took, I stayed on call
Now it's me on the edge and you let me fall
You say love like it's cheap and fast
But love don't vanish when the skies go black
Where the **** were you when I shattered inside?
When the tears hit the pillow every **** night?
I gave you my light, now I'm stuck in this dark
You all vanished quick, left a hole in my heart
I gave you my fight, my time, my breath
Now I'm just bones
You took all I had left
I stayed 10 toes through your storms and scars
But you all bounced quick when I showed my bars
You called me strong like that meant I'm fine
But I cried every night just to feel alive
Held my chest while the panic hit
Told myself they care, but they never did
Had a breakdown, nobody came
Guess my silence never made you all shame
I was the glue for a broken team
Now I'm cracked in ways you'll never see
Family's just a word that you'll abuse
You dipped the second I couldn't be used
Where the **** were you when I shattered inside?
When the tears hit the pillow every **** night?
I gave you my light, now I'm stuck in this dark
You all vanished quick, left a hole in my heart
Was I just a tool? Was I just a crutch?
You showed fake love and I gave too much
I gave you my fight, my time, my breath
Now I'm just bones
You took all I had left
Miss me with that "I didn't know" line
You saw the signs, you just declined
"Call me if you need me" – that's a lie
Cause I did and all I got was silence in reply
I ain't your hero, I'm not your fix
I'm not the one to save you quick
Next time you'll drown and swim alone
Cause I'm out the game, my heart's gone stone
Yeah, I wrote this song as a burial speech
For the me that gave till I couldn't breathe
For the one who stayed when he shouldn't have stayed
Who loved too deep and got left decayed
I'm not bitter, I'm just done pretending
This chapter's closed, this book is ending
You'll scroll one day, maybe feel a sting
But by then I'll be gone, no more puppet strings
Where were you when the walls gave in?
When I drowned in the dark and forgot how to swim?
I bled for you all, now I'm hollow and cold
Left me to rot while you watched me fold
I broke in half just to keep you whole
Carried your pain while I lost control
Don't come back now that the damage is done
You were gone when I needed someone
No calls, (no calls)
No texts, (no texts)
No prayers, (no prayers)
No checks, (no checks)
No "you good," (no "you good")
Just silence, (just silence)
That silence, (that silence)
That told me everything
And now you'll get mine