Which way will I take?
Which road will bring me back to hope?
My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
Which way will I take?
Which road will bring me back to hope?
My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
To my family dearest
I won't be here by the time that you hear this
I took the nearest pack of painkillers and I've never been so serious
And babe I know the chances are you'll probably find this first
And if you're reading this
I'm sorry I'm typing my final words
I hope...no, I know you'll end up hating me with every single fibre you have inside of your nerves
I left you with a baby - maybe I should have tried for her
But trust me, all I've done is get in the way of a life you deserve
How can I live to look you in the eye knowing you've got to scrape by with the money you have inside of your purse
My career isn't paying so why am I trying to write a verse?
I can't support our little angel in this unstable line of work
And without you by my side I'm done with my time on earth
I'm feeling my life's a curse if I'm here the cycle turns
My examples of what not to do when growing up is how I've learned
So don't let the children hear this so they know what life is first, please
Which way will I take?
Which road will bring me back to hope?
My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
Which way will I take?
Which road will bring me back to hope?
My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
My dear kids
I don't know how to start this
Your dad's a **** up - a stupid ****ing bastard
A stupid ****ing....arrrrgh
I'm supposed to be a parent
Can't say goodbye without getting pissed off and swearing
And it's okay if you hate me - I wouldn't like me either
I didn't want to do this
I didn't want to leave ya
But mummy said I'm useless and I'm starting to believe her
I hope you're ****ing happy bitch - I wish I didn't meet ya
I never wanted this
I didn't want to quit
I'm sorry kids but I don't want to live
I got nothing to offer
I wish I had a lot to give
Wish I didn't have such a ****ed up family when I was a kid
I wish God had given me a brain
I wish I wasn't in pain
I wish this vodka could wash it away
What can I say?
In another life we might meet
Just promise that you won't be like me
Which way will I take?
Which road will bring me back to hope?
My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
Which way will I take?
Which road will bring me back to hope?
My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
What the **** am I doing here?
Why is my crib candlelit?
And where's my ****ing phone?
I need to call an ambulance
If I ****ing die here I ain't coming back from it
Open your ****ing eyes close your
Everything's going black I think it's actually happening
What a ****ing change
And this is just an accident
I love my family so much
Can't live to see my dad upset
Need to be there for my little daughter
I thought I coulda brought you happiness
My brother's in prison
I'm supposed to visit
When the screws bring him the news
How's he gonna handle it?
He just wants me to succeed
I don't need this rappin' shit
I've been taking tablets for weeks
The last time I saw my sister I freaked out and smashed her whip
Threw her down a set of stairs
And since then I haven't slept
Told myself my life wasn't supposed to happen yet
I can't maintain or manage this
Am I paranoid or passionate?
We all suffer deep down
Inside we're all battlin' but don't want to admit it
We're blind to what we're damaging
Anger is contagious
And they just blame the bitch
But I've always felt like this even before I had a spliff
Just too ashamed to say it to your face because I'm a man and shit
And that ain't masculine
And I find this kinda embarassing
****ing baffling
Every relationship I've ever had has had a tragic end
When it was only just beginning
Cause mum you ****ed me up and now I have no trust in women
I'm just waiting for my girl to cheat
That's how little trust is given
I can't make my girl a single mum that's ****ing unforgiving
I love you to the moon and back
So we ain't married yet
There ain't a day that goes by where I don't imagine it
You looking fire in the baddest dress
Carrying our little madam in the back of the chariot
While I admire your fashion sense
That's the life I had in mind
I applied for this
I don't wanna die
Now panic's set in
Goodbye to everything I haven't said
Which way will I take?
Which road will bring me back to hope?
My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
Which way will I take?
Which road will bring me back to hope?
My thousand pathways so far from where I wanna be
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