Lyrics: Meredith Henderson
Music: JT Gutierrez/Michael Clampitt/Meredith Henderson/John Matalone
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Every time I close my eyes
As life ticks by
all I hear is white noise
in a somber setting
Cemented in time
nobody tells you
losing yourself
Is just a part of finding life
and I spent so much time hanging on things
I wish I could have changed
But how much more of myself
Could I have given you?
So kill me please
i’m begging this time
perpetually addicted to the high
living is easier when I’m numb
Distract from the fact that
I latch on to distractions to pass the time
Break the levity of your conviction
All that makes me feel less than
You’ll see the light, that leaves my eyes
set in my high functioning depression
An Illness that stole my independence
I felt the burn of every single injection
Romanticized all that makes me anxious
And I can’t fake this
This need for permanence
Will a time ever come
Where I won’t be reliant
To which might end up killing me?
So kill me please
i’m begging this time
perpetually addicted to the high
living is easier when I’m numb
Distract from the fact
I latch on to distractions to pass the time
How much more of myself
Should I have given you
I spent years pouring myself into
This.
Love's not enough to survive on
But that’s always how It goes
Losing parts of what I used to know
You’re somebody else now
A stranger I know everything about.
I refuse again to let my guard down
This is where it ends
Love's not enough to survive on