trauma/response

Lyrics: Meredith Henderson Music: Traythe Lyle 6 if you don't heal what hurt you, you'll bleed on people who didn't cut you. And sometimes it’s too late Feeling less faith Everyday, it’s in poor taste Can you relate? Up in a headspace Always find myself back in a bad place Blame it on my mental state It’s all I can do anyways
The hate I have for myself Knows no bounds I always carry it around Like god damn baggage Hanging in the background To heal is much like to hurt It lingers on from bad to worse Where’s the resolve? It leaves with the blood thirst
I’m terrified of dying Though I’m equally scared to live whenever I was close to being happy I’d **** it all up again Rinse and repeat The problem is always me and i'm drowning in I’m sorry’s I’m sorry for being alive I’m sorry for wasting your time
and I can’t take it back Or erase any of it It’s the debt that I’ll owe At the cost of being level headed Another lesson to weigh me down Not everything is ****ing profound Sometimes the next lesson is wanting to kill yourself
if you don't heal what hurt you, you'll bleed on people who didn't cut you. And sometimes it’s too late Feeling less faith Everyday, it’s in poor taste Can you relate? Up in a headspace Always find myself back in a bad place Blame it on my mental state It’s all I can do
Sometimes the next lesson Is trying not to kill yourself
****.
This is what it’s like the guilt of a trauma response Love’s not enough to survive on Love’s not enough