you'd never know

You'd never know I was fighting for my life eight months ago I shut the door and covered the windows 'Cause the sunlight hurt my eyes I couldn't even go outside for so, so long Andyoucouldn'ttell But the insideof my headwas a living hell I tried my best explaining how it felt But nobody ever understood Doctor said that everything looks good So I blamed myself I don't think I'd ever been so lonely Didn't know if I would make it out The dead of the winter of my life In the middle of the summertime And it still haunts me now But you'd never know That it took me months to step outside alone 'Cause my body still gets tense when I walk home Past the spot where it all went dark It's like a movie flashing back in parts That cuts deep and slow I don't think I'd ever been so lonely Didn't know if I would make it out The dead of the winter of my life In the middle of the summertime And it still haunts me now Everyone said You look fine from the outside But in my mind I was upside down and screaming What the hell is wrong with me? (Oh-oh-oh) Tryna make it make sense, making my head spin Now I pray to forget 'cause I'm still here screaming What the hell is wrong with me? You'd never know You'd never know, no, no