Lyrics: Rumaldo Perez
Music: Rumaldo Perez
On my knees praying asking god tell me why
Feeling like the devil picking on me just to die
Raised all my kids did what I was supposed to do
Why am I feeling pain like I neva paid my dues
Mental health is sinking and I'm feeling like I'm paralyzed
Always overthinking and my family never realized
Hold up man I'm stressing trying to find someone to talk to
Called a couple of homies cuz I'm stressing now I'm soft too
Always on my image never focus on the inside
Life will break u down always trying to be the tough guy
Check up on your homies never know what they be going through
Some will try to hide it and you thinking that they dissing you
Why I do my best to keep the homies always feeling me
Having some regrets and these thoughts is really killing me
Thought I had some homies I could ride or die with
Soon as shit got real seen em all bounce quick
Did some fundraisers put my city on the map
Always showed love neva dissn when i rap..
Why they still hating when I'm doing something right
Smashing on my music like a thief up in the night
Trying to pay some Bill's with some music and some clothes
Why you in my business like I'm stepping on your toes
Why you asking questions like I'm doing something wrong
See I'm with my family when u run up in my home
I believe in God I should have my peace too
Why u disrespecting like I'm disrespecting you
Never been a racist showing love to all my people
Never see me tripping unless u plotting something evil
I know I might seem cocky when u see me dropping hits
Never my intention dropping music just to diss
The world is a ghetto why u acting like u not
See me hella popping but u neva give me props
I represent the ghettos cause there's people still dying
Say I'm in your prayers but we knowing that's a lie
See a different person when we laughing having fun
Then when shit get scary you don't know me trying to run
I see a different picture hella tripping on this hood shit
No one coming around unless u talking about some good shit
Shout-out to my real one's like an angel you a stranger
Homies only love u when there's trouble and there's danger
Find out after years you ain't really all the same
Nothing else in common peep the message it's a game
Still I love my homies I just keep em at a distance
Hoping when I call em they don't show me no resistance
Demons in my ear tell me show nobody love
Then I'm hearing different from the voices up above
We all Gods children gotta let em Him be the judge
Heart's filled with hate man it's evil like a grudge