Loving you... is like a cycle...
And I can't... break it...
Tell me why you pull me close just to push me away
Tell me why you say you'll change and then you don't, you stay the same
I've been patient, I've been quiet, I've been swallowing the pain
But every time I think I'm done, you call my name
You say you love me, but your love has sharp edges
You hold me tight, but only when I'm walking ledges
I've been trying to keep the balance, but I'm losing my footing
And the worst part is — I still think it's worth it
It keeps on hurting, over and over again
No matter how many times I say this is the end
You show up at my door with that look in your eyes
And I forget the promises I made to myself at night
Why do I let you do this to me?
Why do I keep coming back to the same scene?
I swear this time I'm walking out the door
But I've said that a thousand times before
My friends are tired of the stories, they don't answer when I call
'Cause they've heard it all before — the tears, the rise, the fall
I tell them "this time's different", but they know it's just a lie
'Cause they've watched me disappear behind your eyes
You apologize in whispers, you know just what to say
You make me feel like I'm the one who drove you to behave that way
And somehow I believe you, 'cause I want it to be true
That the person that I love is still inside of you
Maybe it's not you...
Maybe it's me
Maybe I've been afraid of what it means to be free
Maybe I don't know what love is supposed to feel like
Maybe I've been confusing the pain for the real thing
Oh...
What if I walked away and never looked back?
What if I stopped defending every single one of your acts?
What if I loved myself the way I've been loving you?
Would I still be sitting here, black and blue?
It keeps on hurting, over and over again
No matter how many times I say this is the end
You show up at my door with that look in your eyes
And I forget the promises I made to myself at night
Why do I let you do this to me?
Why do I keep coming back to the same scene?
I swear this time I'm walking out the door
But I've said that a thousand times before
But I've said that a thousand times before
Why do I let you do this to me?
Why do
Loving you... is like a cycle...
And I can't... break it...
Loving you... is like a cycle...
And I can't... break it...