Hate Myself

Lyrics: Edward Cai Music: Edward Cai I'm breathing in,yet,I still drown In the sea of doubt Mind in the air,I can't look down Don't wanna hit the ground Yet,my mind's still screaming out My mouth can't make a sound Want to be seen,yet not found out Don't wanna lose this battleground If I said I'm fine and satisfied I'd be lying to myself Wanna end this useless storyline Put it right back on the shelf It's easy when there's someone to blame But my mind's trapped in a cell And I'm the only one to blame It's so hard when I hate myself It's so hard when I hate myself It's so hard when I hate myself It's so hard when I hate myself It's easy when there's someone to blame But my mind's trapped in a cell And I'm the only one to blame It's so hard when I hate myself I can't breathe(Can't breathe) I'm so weak(I'm so weak) Why does everyone depend on me? I can't sleep Wish I could dream Feel my heart is tearing at the seams I hope one day,I'll feel myself again But lately,I've been stuck inside my head So tell me was it something that I said? 'Cause I don't wanna lie to make amends(To make amends) If I said I'm fine and satisfied I'd be lying to myself Wanna end this useless storyline Put it right back on the shelf It's easy when there's someone to blame But my mind's trapped in a cell And I'm the only one to blame It's so hard when I hate myself It's so hard when I hate myself It's so hard when I hate myself It's so hard when I hate myself It's so hard when I hate myself If I said I'm fine and satisfied I'd be lying to myself Wanna end this useless storyline Put it right back on the shelf It's easy when there's someone to blame But my mind's trapped in a cell And I'm the only one to blame It's so hard when I hate myself