he has never liked me
one word can haunt my whole life
way damn too easily
tears won't stop falling down
dark thoughts keep coming back
rehearsing thousand times
ways to die
i think im going crazy been losing lately
not scared of death
but scared of pain
wish there's a way
to vanish into thin air
no one will notice
no pain will be caused
not scared of death
but scared of pain
wish there's a way
to make you all forget
it's like hitting reset
turn me into dust
let the wind blow it away
words shooting out all trying to
put me down put me down
can't say a word back eyes down
feeling drowned feeling drowned
doors shutting loudly been playing in my head
crushing all my mind
what is he doing
how can i escape from here
i got no nerve i got fear
questioning every step that i make
honestly tiring my~
face is getting paler
my eyes are getting redder
can't look into the mirror
cuz all i see is failure
not scared of death
but scared of pain
there aint no way
i don't wanna heal this fkin broken my heart
i don't wanna fix this broken mind our broken line in every pieces
oh this barrier, between us
forevermore standing strong
the more he says the more he does the more it hardens
this wall, this hate, and my heart
words shooting out all trying to
put me down put me down
can't say a word back eyes down
feeling drowned feeling drowned
wish i had never been born all my life
wasting all the time
what am i doing
what should i be doing
what is he thinking
what should i be doing
what am i not doing
what should i be doing
why am i still thinking
what more do i need to be
why can't he accept me like this
why is this not enough for him
why do you think my world's so dim
why is this not enough for him
why do you think my world's so dim