Music: Nathan Grant/Gregory O'Connor Iโ€™m nineteen and I started smoking cigarettes And I wear ripped jeans And I fill my weekends with regrets And my car doesn't sound right but that's to be expected And I hide my insecurities Using laughter as a weapon Feels like I'm falling and I didn't think to bring a parachute Seems like you know I'm stalling But I'm too scared to let those feelings out Maybe its because the last one broke my heart And left me all alone But I hope theres something different about you Cause Iโ€™m nineteen and I started smoking cigarettes And I wear ripped jeans And I fill my weekends with regrets And my car doesn't sound right but that's to be expected And I hide my insecurities Using laughter as a weapon I'm still a kid and sometimes I still like to play the air guitar Thereโ€™s days I miss like when Iโ€™d ride my bike to see where the wild things are And I don't wanna grow up yet Cause Iโ€™m too scared that Iโ€™ll forget The tree house homes The bedroom forts The monsters under my bed Iโ€™m nineteen and I started smoking cigarettes And I wear ripped jeans And I fill my weekends with regrets And my car doesn't sound right but that's to be expected And I hide my insecurities Using laughter as a weapon