SONIA

by Nitty Scott , Jamila Woods

📝 Lyrics

Lyrics: Nitzia Scott/Barron Bollar/Jamila Abidemi Woods Music: Nitzia Scott/Barron Bollar/Jamila Abidemi Woods Once upon a time Little girl on the grind Met a boy he was nice At the time

Weeks from the days Plans they were made Soon you could call Them an item

Funny how a title Makes them think They own you Tellin you How to dress Who to talk to Fella please Don’t nobody ask you

My great great granny Was born a slave She found liberation Before the grave

Who you tellin how to behave?

Oh i’m trying to forgive But can’t forget…

It was baddDDD! It was bad

It was baddDDD! It was bad

It was the crying that was baddDDD It was the lying that was baddDDD It was the blaming that was baddDDD The self-hating that was baddDDD

It was the waiting that was baddDDD It was the doubting that was baddDDD It was the screaming that was baddDDD The fear of leaving that was baddDDD

Once upon a time, I believed in lines, Like “i just wasn’t good enough for you” & other lies Mr. “didn’t miss the water till the well was dry” ... Tried & i tried, compromise, compromise It was pouring into you while emptying me It was rationalizing all your toxicity It was hands around my neck with us on my back It was pressure, pain, and panic attacks

I was faded to the wire, putting out my fire Use to have requirements that turned into desires Expected to retire me while keeping you inspired, All the women in me are TIRED LISTEN BITCH My abuela ain’t survive several trips around the sun So i could give it to somebody’s undeserving son This shit don’t pop for you Booty don’t bop for you, Never owe none, belong to no one

Now i only trust patterns, not apologies First date questions: what’s your ideologies? Do you love yourself? Are you healing your trauma? What’s your concept of wealth? Do you check on yo mama?

‘Cause your loyalty ain’t slavery, sis That shit insulting to her bravery sis I know you tangled but this life Is no exchange for your laboring sis Withhold ya flavors, he unsavory sis, sis

I remember saying no to things That happened anyway I remember feeling low the mirror Took my face away I couldn’t recognize her I laid & cried til my Tears washed the kitchen tiles I swear I couldn’t budge

But then I talked about it Til momma sister cousin Told me they went thru it And since it’s in my blood I knew i could do it Cuz if my blood went thru it I knew i could endure it I knew that i could heal it Oh i’m trying to forgive Nut can’t forget…

It was baddDDD! It was bad

It was baddDDD! It was bad

It was the crying that was baddDDD It was the lying that was baddDDD It was the blaming that was baddDDD The self-hating that was baddDDD

It was the waiting that was baddDDD It was the doubting that was baddDDD It was the screaming that was baddDDD The fear of leaving that was baddDDD