Lyrics: 樊宇镈（Coulson Fan）
Music: 樊宇镈（Coulson Fan）
Arranger: 樊宇镈（Coulson Fan）
Lyrics: Yubo Fan
Songwriter: Yubo Fan
Producer: Yubo Fan
I hold the storm behind my spine
Speak in smiles, but not in time
I see too much, then turn away
Not ‘cause I don’t care — it’s just my way
I count the moments no one saw
All the weight behind “I’m flawed”
You laugh, and I laugh too
But I was crying just out of view
I write what I can’t speak
Then fold the page again
You think I’m distant
But I’m just scared of “when”
My thoughts run quiet
But they scream inside
And every time I vanish
It’s 'cause I stayed too wide
I almost said it
But I swallowed the sound
Almost asked for you
But let the words drown
I build my care in silence
Hope someone sees
I shrink into stillness
And disappear with ease
I fade into corners
Where no one looks down
I carry whole worlds
But never make a sound
I leave open doors
Then lock myself out
I wait for a moment
But it never comes around
I trace connection like a map
But never take the last step back
I help you heal, then leave unseen
Make space for you, but not for me
I wear reflection like a skin
You speak — I feel it deep within
And when you leave without a sign
I never ask, I just call it “fine”
It’s not that I don’t feel
It’s that I feel too long
While you move on
I replay where I went wrong
I give too soft
And break too late
They call me kind
But I just hesitate
I almost said it
But I swallowed the sound
Almost asked for you
But let the words drown
I build my care in silence
Hope someone sees
I shrink into stillness
And disappear with ease
I fade into corners
Where no one looks down
I carry whole worlds
But never make a sound
I leave open doors
Then lock myself out
I wait for a moment
But it never comes around
I don’t need loud love
I just need to be kept
Even when I’m quiet
Even when I’ve left
I want to be held
Without being told
That I’m “too much”
For someone to hold
I almost said it
But I swallowed the sound
Carried the hope
But never wrote it down
I care in silence
That’s all I know
And every time I disappear
It's how I show
I almost stayed
But I stepped back slow
I almost asked
But I let it go
I’m not cold
I’m just too deep
To say the things
I always keep in real
I keep in touch
I keep in feel
I keep in deep
I keep in heal
I keep in touch
I keep in feel
I keep in deep
I keep in heal