For the Mentally Unstable

Music: Chase Tyler Andrade [Intro] You know and of course like God is there with me but you know more often than not, God doesn't just like remove you from the situation and instead he wants you to endure it, and then trust in him, and rely on him for strength

[Verse] My passion left and my talent kicked in Last year I almost quit while the pandemic hit Fighting demons 2021 can fall in a ditch I needed help screaming in my pillow "why I exist" Homies tell me I should learn to control my breath Church telling me to pray, I agree with that And doc's telling me the meds might sting a bit It’s likе no matter what I chose, it will nevеr end I got flaws, when I compare myself, I see a weakness But that ain’t stopping me from grabbing my achievements While I was in my mother's womb you could’ve changed it, replaced it, taken it out but you let it stay in This disorder has damaged more than my concentration I suffer daily, it’s hard to give thanks But I know there’s millions out there worse off than me So I stand back and let my pride drop then grieve Understand it’s hard to fall in love My anxiety prevents interpersonal touch My anxiety determines who the helI I can trust He’s Irrational like an overemotional judge Living in my walls, ripping away, breaking the studs It’s genetics, it runs in my blood my life sucks I can’t make this stuff up And I don’t sleep, 'cuz that would mean I need to wake up And I don’t dream 'cuz that mean I have time to give up Words are toxic that’s why I carry breath mints I bet I caught that from ex's Thinking out loud is not a beneficial practice But I’m too stubborn to open up to new suggestions My mind ain't pretty so I’m selective who I let in Hide behind music as soon as I feel opposition My life is a puddle, meant to avoid it but you stepped in People talking trash, in my industry that's destined Political ties are not a drug you wanna mess with Social media has interrogation methods They bring up your past and all the crap that you’ve regretted They’ll silence your voice, doing anything to suppress it If time is money, I owe the IRS collections If time is money, I’m holding onto every second Never satisfied, that’s probably why I feel empty Walk-in my shoes, the path you’ll find I’m on is flimsy Cabinets full of pills, increasing the dose is risky Steady making murals like Leanardo da Vinci I’m seeing what I have, not seeing for what it could be Anxiety sneaking in through back when I’m not looking Yeah The mentally Unstable mind, five doctors with three medications at two different times, that’s how I’d summarize Open wounds that need to heal call up Klopint o cauterize Yeah Constant headaches, oh so many, nauseous & dizzy, throwing up behind a Dennys I’m always nervous, high stakes, tied 9th inning Adrenal glands at full blast, get my Xanax ready Look I gotta thirst for designer products, probably 'cuz I’m insecure if I’m being honest I hate my body, that’s why I compensate with all this And I should probably be selective what I'm spending on it If you looking for a boy toy, look up barstool sports and Dave Portnoy I’m not your man, Danny phantom I'm a ghost boy Just cuz I make you feel at home, doesn’t signal I’m your best choice Rap game Harvey specter, I got my degree now I’m more classier than ever And smiling is key, learned from the best Heathy Ledger Like playboy bunnies and fake love for Hugh Hefner Look I’m second-guessing all the things I’m pursuing I love music, don’t you ever confuse it But this depression isn’t fixed by the spectrum of sound That was clear with Mac Miller and Avicii... wow It might be meaningless to most of you guys But I’m banking on that one of you might Relate to me, all the rest put aside God thank you for the mentally unstable minds Thank you for my unstable mind