2AM, neon on the ceiling
Phone light shining, but I’m barely breathing
Still awake for you
Rain drops running down the window frame
Taxi lights blur while I say your name
Half-empty bottle on the kitchen side
Your ghost still living in my mind
I deleted every message twice
Still got your number memorized
Tell myself that I don’t care
Then I check if you were there
I know you’re bad for me
But lonely gets so loud at night
Every time I almost heal
You hit my phone like city lights
Why you gotta call me when the night gets cold?
When I almost let your memory go
You pull me back with your “I miss you”
Even though we both know the truth
I hate that I still wait for your text
Still lose sleep every time you disconnect
Maybe love and pain are way too close
Maybe I just hate being alone
Streetlights flicker through the bedroom shades
Another song that somehow sounds the same
Your hoodie hanging by the chair
Like you still left yourself here
Everybody says I should move on
But silence hits when the party’s gone
I fill my nights with noise and smoke
Still hear your voice in every echo
I know you’re bad for me
But empty rooms got sharp edges
Every time I lock the door
I swear your shadow enters
Why you gotta call me when the night gets cold?
When I almost let your memory go
You pull me back with your “I miss you”
Even though we both know the truth
I hate that I still wait for your text
Still lose sleep every time you disconnect
Maybe love and pain are way too close
Maybe I just hate being alone
Maybe I don’t miss you
Maybe I miss who I was
Back when your hands felt like home
Back before everything broke
Now the city keeps spinning
While I’m stuck in this room
Talking to your silence
Like it still belongs to you
Why you gotta love me like a temporary high?
Leave me drowning every single night
You say forever when you need somebody
Then disappear without a goodbye
And I know I should finally let this end
But loneliness keeps sounding like your skin
Maybe love and pain are way too close
Maybe I’m just scared to be alone
2AM
Still waiting for your name
Neon shadows in the rain
And I’m still awake