it wasn't love, it was survival

Lyrics: Telisha Jones Music: Telisha Jones Oh Oh It wasn't love, it was survival I stayed down, you stayed idle I held on 'cause I feel new (feel new) You held on 'cause I made you look good too I gave my heart like it was nothing to lose You gave me pieces, I confused 'em for truth Now I'm singing my pain, not for closure or titles But to remind me that was survival I was begging you to show up while I bled in silence Told myself it's love just to justify the violence Emotion of neglect, dressed up as space I lay next to a stranger just to feel safe My friends said leave, but I wasn't ready Thought love meant patience, start real men heavy But you were like work, I just carried too much Called it loyalty, but it was me scared to give up It wasn't love, it was survival I stayed down, you stayed idle I held on 'cause I feel new (feel new) You held on 'cause I made you look good too I gave my heart like it was nothing to lose You gave me pieces, I confused 'em for truth Now I'm singing my pain, not for closure or titles But to remind me that wasn't love It was survival, was survival, was survival, was survival, oh, oh-oh You never had to choose me, I did it for both Held it all together while you played the ghost Gave you the softest parts of me, just to prove I was enough when really I was two I'm not bitter, I'm awake and that's the shift You didn't lose me, you just missed the gift Now I pour into me like I did into you This song ain't a cry, it's a breakthrough too Hmm, hmm Ah Hmm Mm