J.A.P.A.N.

Lyrics: Jelayne Shyica-Trevel Webster Music: Jelayne Shyica-Trevel Webster I'M ****IN' TIRED OF THIS SO **** IT, SO **** IT ARE YOU LISTENING?
I'M DIGGING INTO YOUR THOUGHTS. IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE YOU AND I HAVE TALKED I'VE HAD A HARD IN THIS SHIT, THE SHIT I CALL LIFE. AND I BET YOU'RE BETTER OFF WITHOUT BEING IN MINE DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO TRY TO BE A MAN? AND BEING LOST IN A WORLD HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND? ALL THESE ****ING YEARS, FEELING LIKE I'M NOTHING ALL I EVER WANTED, WAS FOR YOU TO ****ING LOVE ME YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF, **** YOU AND YOUR ****ED UP MIND CAUSE YOU ABANDONED ME
AND YOU'LL NEVER BE A MAN CAUSE WE CAN CLEARLY SEE THAT I'LL BE BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU'RE ****ING WORTHLESS TO ME WHY THE **** DID YOU LEAVE ME? WHAT THE **** DID I DO TO YOU?
CAN YOU ANSWER THIS QUESTION?
OR WILL YOU JUST LET IT THROUGH YOUR HEAD? ALL THE ****ING YEARS AND I'VE STILL YET TO FEEL
LIKE ANYONE COULD GIVE A **** BECAUSE I CONSTANTLY DEAL WITH THE ABSENCE OF IMPORTANCE, SUCH A LONG LASTING PAIN ALL BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T WANT TO BE A FATHER TO ME
(YOU PIECE OF SHIT) BECAUSE OF YOU MY WHOLE LIFE HAS BEEN HELL TO LIVE I'M NOTHING CLOSE TO A MAN AND I GOT NOTHING TO GIVE (NOT EVEN A MAN)
I'M JUST SO EMPTY, SO BITTER AND BROKEN IT'S NOT A GRUDGE THAT I'M HOLDING, IT'S THE HATRED THAT WAS BORN WITHIN YOU GAVE UP BEFORE YOU COULD EVEN TRY
**** ME FOR BELIEVING IN YOU
BUT I JUST KNOW I DON'T GET IT, AND I NEVER WILL BECAUSE THIS WILL NEVER MAKE
SENSE TO ME I FELT LIKE A SICK DOG WHEN YOU PUT ME DOWN YEARS LATER STILL STANDING TAKE A LOOK AT ME NOW TAKE A LOOK AT ME NOW TAKE A LOOK AT ME NOW