Lyrics: Austin Harms
Music: Austin Harms
[Verse 1]
Maybe I should get away
‘Cause I’ve been feelin’ like I ain’t worth shit no more (no more)
Maybe a cabin by the lake would help
If you love me won’t you say it
And if you don’t then let me hear it anyway
Self-destruction starts again
[Chorus 1]
So I’m breakin’ everything that I’m holdin’ close, yeah
I don’t know why
I don’t know why
Push you until you go, then
Look around and there’s no one by my side
And I wonder why
And I wonder why, yeah
Oh why, yeah
I got so good at lyin’
That it feels the same
I’m diggin’ my own grave here
‘Cause I’m only this closed
When I need you the most
But I know you’re leavin’ anyways, yeah
[Post-Chorus 1]
Before you grow, you gotta break
Before the calm is all the rain, now
I’m a hundred miles away
Somewhere on Cedar Lane
[Verse 2]
Maybe I should change my name (change my name)
‘Cause you don’t know me like I thought you did before
I thought you did before, no
I just hope the medication helps
‘Cause lately I can’t even fake it, no no
What’s the point of even tryin’ anyways
What’s the point of even tryin’ anyways
Self-destruction starts again
[Chorus 2]
So I’m breakin’ everything that I’m holdin’ close, yeah
I don’t know why
I don’t know why
Push you until you go, then
Look around and there’s no one by my side
And I wonder why
And I wonder why, yeah
Oh why, yeah
I got so good at lyin’
That it feels the same
I’m diggin’ my own grave here
‘Cause I’m only this closed
When I need you the most
But I know you’re leavin’ anyways, yeah
[Post-Chorus 2]
Before you grow, you gotta break
Before the calm is all the rain, now
I’m a hundred miles away
Somewhere on Cedar Lane
Somewhere on Cedar Lane, yeah yeah
[Outro]
Givin’ in to what I’ve been fightin’
All this ****in’ pain that I’m fightin’
I’m not runnin’ now, I’m not hidin’
I’m not hidin’
I’m not hidin’
I’m on Cedar Lane
Come and find me
Come and find me