crumbling/suicide note (slow+reverb)

I wish that I could find another way But I am not alive, already dead So long before I I wish you knew how I feel About you, about you Don't think it's sad too, sad too Suffer I'm glad too, glad too I'm crumbling down I am still stuck in this town Life of a letdown, letdown Jumping to get down, get down And I need some help As for it, no chance it help Laugh at it, after we fail But I can't get up again Do some more to sober up Five-cards wants to blow me up Falling is the best of fun The last look at this gun Every room in my house is a ****ing mess I wanna paint the wall with a shotgun blast Maybe that's what it takes to wake up my friends Hope you know what you were missing then I wanna write a note that makes my friends cry Write a note that makes my friends cry Really makes me wanna take my life Take my life "Hey, umm... it's me And I don't really know how to say this But... I don't think umm... I'll be coming home tonight And I just wanted to let you know that It's not your fault and I love you a lot Uhh... you know I've been thinking about this for a while And I... settled on it y'know so I love you."