Lyrics: Macky
Music: Macky
朝が来ても 起き上がれない
(Even when morning comes, I can't get up)
心も体も 重く沈んで
(My heart and body sink heavily)
誰にも言えない この弱さが
(This weakness I can't tell anyone about)
今日もボクを 苦しめる
(Torments me again today)
疲れやすすぎて つらくて
(Being so easily tired is painful)
歩くことさえ 怖くなる
(I get scared even to walk)
だけどほんの小さな光が
(But a tiny light)
遠くで ボクを呼んでいる
(Is calling me from afar)
遊びすぎても 仕事しすぎても
(Whether I play too much or work too much)
次の日には 身体が悲鳴を上げる
(The next day my body screams)
情けないと ボクを責めても
(Even if I blame myself for being pathetic)
生まれ持った障害と 病が止められない
(I can't stop the disability and illness I was born with)
別に完璧でいたいわけじゃない
(It's not like I want to be perfect)
誰も憎めないし 憎んでもいない
(I can't hate anyone, and I don't hate anyone)
この身体で なんとかやってきたけど
(I've managed somehow with this body, but...)
やっぱりキツい どうすればいい？
(It's still tough. What should I do?)
自分のペースで 進んでるつもりさ
(I intend to move at my own pace)
でも一日の終わりに 体調を崩す
(But at the end of the day, my health collapses)
昨日までできたことが
(What I could do until yesterday)
できなくなる それが悔しい
(I can't do anymore. That is frustrating)
健常者も同じ気持ちなのかな
(Do healthy people feel the same way?)
ボクは健常者じゃないから分からない
(I'm not like them, so I don't know)
ただ次の日に ガタがきて
(It's just that the next day, I break down)
動けなくなる この現実
(The reality is I become unable to move)
疲れやすすぎて つらくて
(Being so easily tired is painful)
それでも 明日を信じたい
(Still, I want to believe in tomorrow)
微かな希望を抱きしめながら
(While hugging a faint hope)
静かに 夜を越えていく
(I quietly make it through the night)