Doing It To Myself

Lyrics: Isabela Pierce Music: Nicolas Kauffman/Isabela Pierce im a crack in the pavement a flood in the basement a cut that only ever bleeds i can't put me to bed im the gun to my head i'm the one that you want but never need
all of this time i let me believe i can't be fine i don't know how to be
mama look i'm crying i don't wanna leave me here in the dark i dont wanna keep one foot out the garden anymore (i keep doing it to myself)
there must be a reason for everything every single little thing i break oh how very deep is the well in this catastrophic hole that ive made lashing out like an unseen child in a department store now she's down at the local dive dressed like a wh*re
all of this time i let me believe i can't be fine i don't know how to be
daddy look i'm dying i dont wanna twist that knife in your heart i dont wanna keep one wheel off the shoulder anymore I keep doing it to myself
take the sheets right off this bed i made so cynically I might as well just throw the whole damn thing away, im singing
mama look i'm crying i don't wanna leave me here in the dark i dont wanna keep one foot out the garden anymore (i keep doing it to myself) daddy look i'm dying i dont wanna twist that knife in your heart i dont wanna keep one wheel off the shoulder anymore I keep doing it to myself