Music: Millexica Fox
fear
and shame
taking their course
through my body
a natural incentive to throw me away
and discard her
cuz nothing much was left after they'd had their way
a delicate destruction of social isolation, i hid my true face
and that girl she was never the same
cuz my friends all have something to show
some resemblance that makes them feel whole
but there's nothing for me
there's none of my pain there at all
now a piece
falls out of my heart
slowly
is it supposed to feel like there's somebody else
inside of me?
as the light
drips
down from the sky
unchanging
the lights inside my house glaring down on my screen
suffocating everything
now i'll never be the girl that i was meant to be
i'll never be the girl i was once meant to be
and her tender heart remains in a deep part of me
i ended up the boy without the courage to bleed
my own intervention on the part of protection
there's no way to cope and there's no medication
when letting it out is what made me so broken
i don't have the courage to RIP MYSELF OPEN!!!
was i supposed to tell the world that i was broken?
the weakness in my art's an easy way to choke me
the seasons came and went and still nobody chose me
that girl could never be 'cause nobody would love me