Lyrics: Morgan Murphy
Music: Morgan Murphy
You hate it when I leave, I wish that I could stay
I wish that we could fly, to somewhere far away
Sometimes I'm feelin' good, but never feelin' great
If our love is so golden, why'd it fade to gray?
(Why'd it fade to gray)
Still feelin like an outcast
I've got some close friends
But we don't even talk anymore
And recently I've learned that the older that I grow
I care less and less than before
Can't tell if I'm numb, or I'm just growin' up
I'm getting so good, at covering it up
It's like a full time job, at being in my head
I'm my own boss, I've got the needle and the thread
I'm getting so good
I'm getting so good
I'm getting so good
Feel lonely when you leave, but girl I gotta go
I wish that we could fly out to somewhere on the coast
Right now I'm feeling good, I wouldn't call it great
Why am I so lonely, but lock myself away?
And I hate that it got brushed off when I was just a kid
It made me so sad when I was young
This anxiety grew with me
It's hard to talk about it but I feel it when I'm numb
Can't tell if I'm numb, or I'm just growin' up
I'm getting so good, at covering it up
It's like a full time job, at being in my head
I'm my own boss, I've got the needle and the thread
I'm getting so good
I'm getting so good
I'm getting so good
Tell me what's so good about living with the pain
If I got one life I don't wanna feel the same
If you loved me now, I don't think I'd feel the same
Cause the weight on my head really damagin' my brain
Tell me what's so good about living with the pain
If I got one life I don't wanna feel the same
If you loved me now, I don't think I'd feel the same
Cause the weight on my head really damagin' my brain
Can't tell if I'm numb, or I'm just growin' up
I'm getting so good, at covering it up
It's like a full time job, at being in my head
I'm my own boss, I've got the needle and the thread
I'm getting so good
I'm getting so good
I'm getting so good