Lyrics: 不是Jason Todd
Music: 不是Jason Todd
They said that I'm bad
They said that I'm wack
They said I'm nothing they wish they had
They said that I buried their kid
I should go to the hell
Matter of fact I should take my family with me
Take a second thought to say I'm sorry
Til I told her I got the record she was crying heavy
You left your kids to die she was way too achy
I was just happened to be there now they said I'm nasty
Yeah maybe I am nasty
Maybe because my bounty overloaded
I care for her care you care for money
You wanna defraud but wanna charge me
Eavesdropping her every single trivial deed
Now who's to say I'm a liar but the truth too chewy
I still recall the night you said things too bawdy
You and her friends team up to just frame me
Now that I know
No matter how far that I go
My kindness to you is just a tool to get thrown
Just because I know everything that you don't
You just envy
You just make me so cloudy
I was a boy try to get myself outta that prison
Now you kick me back to the well
I can't no longer feeling the passion
Now I'm locked by depression
Hope god make my resurrection
You are an adult but you act like thirteen
I can no longer bear with it my mind is racing
Oxygen is being pumping out I'm choking
I'm just try to do good guess I'm just daydreaming
If I got an another chance I don't wanna be good
I just wanna be a villain
There's no other choice
I guess no matter what I do
I'll just wind up a villain
Listen to the part again
I'll never be what you expecting I am
Packing all the packages
I'll step out that door with no second thought again
You play my kindness how does that feel
It must feels so great again
You backstabbed me wanted me to pay your bills
Cause of your fault you wanna got me killed
So your conscience can sit on shell
You must feel so guilty cuz you did it all
But you made me more depressed
Can't be normal again
My good will be the moral stack
Threat to kill my fam
I'mma cry for that
Take you back when I was a kid
I was fourteen when I took a rifle hit
The mission was to take myself out when I made a benefit
I've been afraid of this ailment
It's not minor but huge mistake
I'm aware I'm distinct cuz this is my extinct instinct
Pickin' this awful disease
Back when I was young didn't know what it is
All I know is I changed by the flip of a switch
Nobody helped me I was desperate
Until one day a stranger showed up how coincident this is ain't
How come that she saved me and I didn't
I was in the wrong state thinking suicidal every day
Afraid to put emotion on the table I was quite different
It's really hard approachin' to my soul insecure I was made of it
That girl who saved me helped pick up my pieces taught me how to live
Every single avenue can help you see another view
I didn't know why she would help me
That changed me forever new
I was moved and touched and cried a lot
And wanna help the others too
But I just didn't know that would lead me to destruction
Gettin' spewed
Listen to the part again
I'll never be what you expecting I am
Packing all the packages
I'll step out that door with no second thought again
You play my kindness how does that feel
It must feels so great again
You backstabbed me wanted me to pay your bills
Cause of your fault you wanna got me killed
So your conscience can sit on shell
You must feel so guilty cuz you did it all
But you made me more depressed
Can't be normal again
My good will be the moral stack
Threat to kill my fam
I'mma cry for that
Nah not gonna change
Not because you frame me so I give up on this thing
Not because you wanna kill me so be afraid of this
Even the world is worthless I still wanna spread kindness
Even though I'm kinda mess
I'm not conscienceless
Or callousness
Don't care if they neurosis or nimbleness
I wanna be with them through apocalypse
Feeling this vibe
Thinking one day we gon die
Why not do good in our life
Instead of shooting
People die
This is stinky
We will fly
To the hell
Indemnify
Clock's ticking
Guess I'm just a suicidal bastard trying to change the world
Pass the point of no return
Like Eran tryna have it all
People were pushing to the hell
And most of them didn't even have a choice
It's just people and surroundings got them forced
But this is because of this
People went hell seein' different
Maybe it's hope
Maybe it's another hell
I don't know
But I'll know
Only if I keep on going I can see the view
I'm not afraid
I'm not okay
I just need
Listen to the part again
I'll never be what you expecting I am
Packing all the packages
I'll step out that door with no second thought again
You play my kindness how does that feel
It must feels so great again
You backstabbed me wanted me to pay your bills
Cause of your fault you wanna got me killed
So your conscience can sit on shell
You must feel so guilty cuz you did it all
But you made me more depressed
Can't be normal again
My good will be the moral stack
Threat to kill my fam
I'mma cry for that
Welcome
To the world full of liars
You gon settle down here
And get used to that