Lyrics: Alexis Idarose Kesselman/Lydia Night/Mikey Freedom Hart/Tyler Spry/UPSAHL
Music: Alexis Idarose Kesselman/Lydia Night/Mikey Freedom Hart/Tyler Spry/UPSAHL
Producer: Idarose
I love the way I really hate myself
I profit off a lack of mental health
My mood shows up on a conveyor belt
It’s crushing, my guts are on the floor
I said I wanted to get a normal job
I romanticize a life I think I want
Until, I’m handing you the bill
And you say you used to like my band
Is this forever
Am I a name that you’ll remember?
It’s all just a pity party
Oh, what a joy, what a crowd
I’ll tell you I’m oh so sorry cus it’s embarrassing now
It’s a parody of pleasure
Lips big and red like a clown
It’s all just a pity party
So cry for me or get out
It’s crazy how I almost died this year
And now I’m shotgunning my very first beer
And dad keeps telling me that his end is near
Am I dying, waiting for him to die?
I’ll starve my body for the seventeenth time
Said I ate my lunch, what’s another lie
I’m over being mediocre
I wanna be smaller and smarter or just ok
Don't need forever
Am I a name that you’ll remember?
It’s all just a pity party
Oh, what a joy, what a crowd
I’ll tell you I’m oh so sorry cus it’s embarrassing now
It’s a parody of pleasure
Lips big and red like a clown
It’s all just a pity party
So cry for me or get out
Ohs
I hate that I keep pushing friends away
I’m all or nothing till I’m alone and gray
Am I missing something, are you scared to stay?
Can you come over, and make me feel like shit? (and make me wanna quit?)
I promise that I won’t cut my arms
Cus I’m so sick of having long sleeves on my body
I’ll throw a pity party
Leave your problems at the door cus it’s about me
Until it’s over
And my ex is crying on my shoulder
Welcome to my pity party, gear up it’s gonna get loud
Let’s take it to the beginning, this song is embarrassing now
Bass: Idarose
Guitar: Lydia Night
Mastering Engineer: Randy Merrill
Vocal Recording: Idarose
Mixing Engineer: Jeremie Inhaber
Supervisor: Lydia Night