Lyrics: Nosipho Khuzwayo/Buhlebendalo
Music: Nosipho Khuzwayo/Buhlebendalo/Mfanafuthi Ruff Nkosi
Verse
I'm no attention seeker,
I know sometimes I get all confused but I'm no sicker.
I'm not crazy, I just see things in a different picture.
Scriptures...that I've written tryna understand this killer.
Tryna...defeat all these demons.
Some need to understand, I'm not as strong as I was before
At any day, at any state I could just fall flat on the floor.
I don't daydream anymore... I can't
I don't just smile for no reason like before
My happiness now lasts for three minutes or four.
Tears...well tears always! Always pour!
They don't drop, they flow!
This depression will make you feel so unworthy and stupid.
I hate the person I've become.
I regret every step I take and every decision I make turns to a mistake.
I can't do anything right, hearts are all that I break.
I guess I can never be enough, better give them a break.
Listen! I need you to understand.
I just need you to listen to me and hold my hand!
Don't act like you understand!
Don't hold my hand if you pretend!
I hardly trust.. I used to lust
My heart used to be a "heart".. now I've lost it
It got thrown away by the wind like dust.
Why is it that everytime I think I gotta cry huh?
Why can't they accept who I am, so I always gotta lie.
This is why I should never be alone, I could end up taking my own life.
Scars on my wrist, still new
Blood still drips...sleeping pills...
Sleeping pills and some weed.
I swear, I swear that's all that I need.
Or a power button!! Yeah I'd switch myself off for months or weeks or years!
I gotta get out here!!
I hide from their faces, I try to ignore their words.. cause that's my worst fear
I don't wanna know what they gotta say..
Depression is real and words can kill
I'm very sensitive, you either be me in my life or don't be in my life.
Just know that I always cry when I feel.
I...just need my happy self back
That's all I'm asking for, that's all that I need
Hook
UluVuyolwethu bamb'isandla Sam ntombazana
Lomhlaba uyahlaba, kubuhlungu ukunyamela.
Kodwa uliQhayiya lethu, suba ne xhala gqiyazana sizo phuma kulamatyathanga omhlaba
Kodwa Abazali bathi nyamezela, abas'boni siyaphela
Khanisibonisen'indlela
Ngoba Lena inameva.
Busuku ne mini siyacela
Kumdali siya ngxengxeza.
OH yini, yintoni na, ngabe senzeni na?