Lyrics: Jeremy Wible/Jared Gafford
Music: Jeremy Matthew Wible
For so long I wanted to die and just never wake, never wake up
The Monster inside told me I would be nothing, I wasn’t enough
I knew I was here for a reason, but I stopped believing in love
But now I am chasing the demons, I promise I’m not giving up
5 years ago I created a Monster, eternized the pain and created a mobster, walked around the streets with my held high, till I heard a grown man say he wanted to die, now I brought the remix cuz the monsters grown, bigger then my life and I feel alone, little clones to disown fight a dog with a bone, I try battling my demons but they all came home, live inside my dome, go and twist my tone, I tried growing as a man but the trust is gone, left these fakes behind had to walk away, 5 years latter coming out to play, what you say to a man that has lost his will, try giving him a verse go and swallow a pill, are we over the hill. or is it wrong to kill, im choosing to fight give satan the bill
For so long I wanted to die and just never wake, never wake up
The Monster inside told me I would be nothing, I wasn’t enough
I knew I was here for a reason, but I stopped believing in love
But now I am chasing the demons, I promise I’m not giving up
My whole life I always felt like I was left behind
Like I was looking through a window and I couldn’t hide
No matter where I went the demons found their way inside
And when I tried to kick em out, they turned around and multiplied
Killing em off, doing my best to get over hump
I never believed I was worth any love, so I pushed you away
When you wanted to talk, yeah
Then I sat there in my self-inflicted lonely daze
Wondering if I was born a loser trapped inside this hellish cage
And I never meant to hurt the people that I loved
I let the whiskey and the pills control the man I was
And I was only 23 when I had had enough
And I took half the bottle, hoping that the life I had was done
Screaming I don’t wanna do this no more
Crying out to God, cause I was broken lying on the floor
Saying if you’re really real, then show me what’s in store
Then I felt a warmth inside my heart, I never felt before
Talked with God he said tame my demons, sinner in my heart cuz as human we heathens, breath in these fumes cuz this world is poison but don’t get it twisted I love this life, never judge another homie you can do what you will, I aint trying to convert you the bloods been spilled, yeah we put up roadblocks and we try to divide if we all come together we could fight and survive, They use religion for they greatest war, monster is us forget lust we never discuss, must keep all the madness, pills pop the sadness, one percent they able to have this, till we all in the grave, cuz we all are a slave, stabbing at the dragons and fight for change, rearrange the path let it be known, Jays coming through change the thrown.
For so long I wanted to die and just never wake, never wake up
The Monster inside told me I would be nothing, I wasn’t enough
I knew I was here for a reason, but I stopped believing in love
But now I am chasing the demons, I promise I’m not giving up