CONUNDRUM

Lyrics: Tiad Hilm Sejati Music: Tiad Hilm Sejati Tell me what you gon' do when the sky turns black Tell me what you gon' do when the sun don't shine Tell me what you gon' do when you can't go back To the moment when you see the stars intertwined
But the lights are dim as your hands are shaking While you're holding a glass filled with Absinthe 'Cause you think you're absent when your friends needed help And you feel so distant 'cause you were never there Still you wanted to leave, 'cause you think you're toxic Also you seemed manic, verging on psychotic Then you felt so panic, 'cause the world's chaotic It's very ironic, you turned into a narcotic I'd pray under the mistletoe in this status quo To overthrow the overflowing of my demons I wish I'm a Morgan then I go free man But this beacon is beamin', I'm beaten and bleedin'
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away? Far away Heavenly Father, why are you so far away? Far away Heavenly Father, why are you so far away? Far away Heavenly Father, why are you so far away? Far away
Can anyone tell me where to find solitude 'Cause suffering multitude losses makes my mind screwed Can anyone, please, tell me where to find peace When the pieces are puzzled, I'm scared to be deceased I crave food for my thoughts, a feast for my soul So I won't tie a noose knot until my eyes roll Yes I've been ig'nant, these thoughts are malignant Behind all forms of stigma, causing to feel indignant Yet the vision of wanting to die is very resilient Ain't that coherent to know that millions of people be thinking the same thing They barking the wrong tree, telling the same deceit Trusting the wrong soul and killing the same shit (Well, you know what I mean?) Well, the question still remains and I'm here to make amends Am I taking Jesus' word if I put the Bible on my hands? Even when I'm a heathen, my existential dread Is something that I need to overcome before I'm dead And the tears that have been shed still lives on in every shred Now my eyes are seeing red, dead redemption on myself My heaven is the present, so maybe this is it Jumping off the window to make me believe I exist
Heavenly Father, why are you so far away? Far away Heavenly Father, why are you so far away? Far away Heavenly Father, why are you so far away? Far away Heavenly Father, why are you so far away? Far away